I am so mad at myself.
I gave away my power.
I need to learn how to not do that.
I know. Sooo frustrating.
Sorry! Was it something you can talk about?
Thanks. I’m going to try and shake it off but if that doesn’t work, I’ll let y’all know.
Argh….I feel your frustration!
I have been known to do that also…it’s HORRID.
Re: Argh….I feel your frustration!
It is, isn’t it? And I had no idea that was what I was doing until it was too. Late. Grrr.
It feels awful. But the thing about it is, every time you take it back, you get stronger. It is something that takes practice and numerous set backs. Let the being mad at yourself run through its process until it turns into self-empowerment. That energy might at least end up in a good place. You’ll be stronger next time. And sometimes when you give up your power, you’ll feel silly for doing it again, but not so mad. You’ll take back the power more easily. Eventually you won’t give it up–at least not often. And when you do, you’ll know how to quickly catch it and take it back in a graceful sweep right before it hits the floor and breaks. At least, that’s what the journey was like for me. Hope it helps.
Laura, thanks so much for your response. It actually helped. I like the idea of getting stronger by taking it back.
I really hope I get better at not giving it up so easily.
Take it back as soon as you can!
Can I borrow your magic lasso?
I’ve done that. It sucks. (((hugs)))
Yes, take it back. I hope so much it wasn’t about your four-day work week.
No, it was about my character letters. Sigh. Which is why I made myself write some new ones today.
Ack. Now my imagination is running wild. You HAVE to take it back.
I think I did. Take it back.
I’ll tell you when we talk. Maybe tomorrow?
Should you be giving up any of your first Friday off? If its really the best time for you, mid-afternoon tomorrow would be great. But if you need to immerse yourself in a day of writing, go for that. I’m not in a rush for this, believe me! I can’t focus on it until May, with my schedule this month. 🙂
? What happened?
I shouldn’t have given someone my character letters to read because when they responded with criticism I didn’t handle it very well. Sigh.
It’s OK to tell people, “I’m still feeling my way with this project, and I’m not ready for feedback yet.”
Yes, it was just an odd situation I think, in part, because the person knew how hard I had been struggling to get back to words and I was surprised at the reaction and the comments.
I was just recommended to read “The Four Arguments” and I guess one of them is not to take things personally, obviously something for me to work on. 🙂
I seem to need to learn this lesson again and again — but I, too, am getting better about it.
You’ll feel stronger tomorrow.
I read through the comments to get an idea of what happpened.
I really do hate it when that happens. I’m often the scratching post at work due to my position (I handle the doctors’ finances and they hate hearing the results and yell a lot), my boss (a woman) told me it’s time to shove back.
I have, and I feel better, even if I’m following up a month later for a meeting to clarify what needed to be said at the time, and I feel stronger every time.
Do what you need to do so it won’t haunt you.
I love your letters, they work for YOU – and that’s what’s important.
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